In 2009 my life took a drastic turn and all that I had known began to change.  As many doors closed, others began to open for me and since that time, I have been on a journey of self-discovery and exploration. Looking back, I’ve noticed that major shifts seem to take place in my life in nine-month cycles.  How funny to me, that it was even the year of “9″ (2009) that pushed me into a new cycle of my life.

Nine.  The number of months it takes to form a human life. Nine represents the cycle of something beginning at “one,” a seed being planted, and the energy it takes for that creation to fully form through two, three four and so on.  When we arrive to “nine,” something is complete; it’s time for a new cycle to commence.  A baby is born, something begins, and life springs forth anew. When that creation is born or manifested, it becomes “10″ which indicates a new cycle, the returning to “one” again, yet one spiral upward.

I thought about this in regards to my life and have come to realize that each nine-month time frame has brought its own completed cycle to my life.  So, I began to think about what it takes to create something in our lives. To create any new life form, it takes the mother and the father, the male and the female parts, joined together to create a new life, a sum that is greater than the whole of the two parts. Both energies are needed to spark creation.

 

Luckily, we, as human beings, don’t have to wait to become whole by finding our counterpart outside us. We have both energies within. We have the innate power to create and manifest anything we want in our own lives.

This ability to create is such a gift. We are blessed with the necessary powers of both masculine and feminine energy within us, the yin and the yang, the sun and the moon, the emissive and receptive, which means when we use these energies, we can create anything we desire. I looked back on these nine month cycles of my life and realize that I was creating and manifesting specific desires in my life. I was the life-producing agent in my own life. I am the cause of all that I am.

When I think of this, I become really excited. I know that the masculine energy is the driving force, the will power, the determination it takes to make a decision, or begin something new. It is the energy that keeps the creation moving forward into manifestation. But that energy would be directionless and floating freely if it did not have a place to form.  This is where the feminine aspect of ourselves comes in. It is the womb of gestation, our thoughts, our emotions, our actions that take time and space to be fully realized.  It is the creative part that pulls all the ideas together and gives it shape.

Looking at it through a psychological aspect, you could say the masculine energy is our consciousness, the deciding factor, or the part we direct. It is our free will to choose. In a world of infinite possibilities of ways of living, we have the power to choose what we want to do, who we want to be, how we want to think.  It is completely up to us. So we choose something, a heart-felt desire, and we plant that seed. But where does it get planted? It moves deeply into our subconscious mind, that magical place that works in images and feelings and dreams. This to me is the feminine side of the mind. It is the place where all our desires are stored and begin to grow in strength until one day, they become so dense with energy, that this desire has to be born in the physical world, and we see our heart-felt wishes manifested before us.

Both these aspects work hand in hand and can be powerful tools, if we know how to use them. We can have many desires, just like we can plant or sow many seeds. But if we do not tend to them with all our energy, they will never grow and fully form. It takes both the will power to plant and tend to the seeds, as well as the fertile soil in which to plant them. And like I said, we are divinely blessed and given the gift of both of these tools.  In the Bible it talks of the Garden of Eden. I can’t help but wonder if this garden is really our mind? We are each given a mind and the free will to do with it what we choose. We can create a paradise, or we can lament over a desert. I think it is our choice.

 

So as I begin this next journey, these are the thoughts I carry in my mind. I will be my own “mother” and my own “father” to my creation – my life. I am exploring and growing and working on creating a life that I love. This will be my divine creation, a sum that is greater than the whole of all parts. And as my life unfolds in front of me, it will be a continuous cycle of births and new beginnings, new ideas, new adventures. Thankfully, it doesn’t always have to take a full nine months to create something. We are reborn into something new every day, each time we wake up from a night’s sleep, or complete a full week, month of year. The beautiful part is that it doesn’t have to be tied to time either. With each beat of our heart, each breath we take, each thought we think in our minds, it is always beginning again and pulsing with life. We can choose what we want, who we want to be and how we want to live.

With each choice, we plant the seed and we let it grow. And as it forms, the time for rebirth comes to us and we are then born again. So this is my journey of change. This is my story of the creations in my life, of my life as a Born Again Baby.

To be “born again” also means to awaken to something divine within us. I can’t think of anything more beautiful and divine that truly living this extraordinary gift of life that has been given to us by the Creator, the Great Spirit, God, Allah – however you like to call it. We are alive and we can produce life in many different forms, with every choice we make. To me, being given that power is amazing and absolutely Divine.  So I guess you could say, this “Born Again Baby” is ready to be born again.